Learning to Stuff

Some of my earliest memories are of eating compulsively, not that I would have known to call it that at the time.  The first food I remember bingeing was saltine crackers.  The width of the cracker perfectly matched my mouth & could be slide in onto the top of my tongue.  At that time, saltines came wrapped in waxed paper and when a sleeve was finished, there were lovely crumbs and salt at the bottom.  I would make a kind of funnel of the waxed paper sleeve and pour the crumbs into my mouth.  This made me extremely happy.  But though I remember saltines as my start into disordered eating, sugar has really been my truest love.  Our kitchen was typically stocked with the name brand snacks of the time:  Kool-Aid, Chips Ahoy, Oreos.  All of which went perfectly with the popular TV shows of the time, of which Gilligan's Island was my especial favorite.   Later on, I would get much more creative with getting my sweet fix.